The last six months have been a crazy roller-coaster ride ...... a roller-coaster ride that felt like it could de-railed at any minute and it's not over yet. I don't know why but I have never found journaling easy, especially when times are tuff. I tend to crawl back into my shell, communication-ally and cut myself from those who aren't in my immediate circle of friends. I get into this pattern of saying if I can just make it till next month, I'll be okay because then I'll have time to catch my breath. But then of course next month comes and go's and I am still out of breath.
Over Christmas break the church offices were closed for a few days and I spent some of that time by myself.
And the Lord met me in that time. He revealed to me that I have been putting one foot in front of the other for far too long. And if I wanted to see him move again, I had to make room for him to move. He showed me how dried up I had become. Used up. Always pouring out and no one to pouring back into me. Don't get me wrong, my relationship with God is strong but I need a time of refreshing in my spirit. I can't continue just putting one foot in front of the other.
Redding has always been a place of refreshment to me. I don't know what it is about Redding but I always leave there with a refreshed spirit and mind. Right now, I am long over do for that.We have major, mountain size problems at our church right now. So I am coming to meet with God during this time. To seek his Face, not just his Hand. Please pray that the Lord meets us in a powerful way on this trip. That He would give us the strength to help our church piece it's self back together and find it's identity in Him.